I have been feeling a bit unsettled lately. Disconcerted. Anxious.
I am frustrated by my skincare business not making me enough money.
I have spent way too much time lately looking at real estate websites and dreaming about houses that we cannot afford.
My skin has been suffering breakout after breakout after breakout.
I have wasted R300 worth of ovulation predictor tests – all of them negative - seems that where I wanted to fall pregnant as soon as possible, my body has other ideas.
I hate how I lose 1kg, only to gain 1.4kg the next week. What a frustrating never-ending journey…
I have been very jaded and lacklustre lately, and I really don’t like this version of myself.
So I have decided to make a conscious effort… to just breathe… relax…
I must be thankful and grateful for what I have, because I know that I am very blessed.
I must keep the faith that things will come right – my business might not make me the bucks I wanted, but wow, I work from home, have lots of time to spend with my daughter, and I’m my own boss. Our dream home might be outside our reach for the time being, but one day, one day. My skin will come right again… I will fall pregnant again… I will lose weight again…
For now, I must enjoy the little things. And count my blessings. And find the contentment I am usually filled with again. I must see the world through Mia’s eyes, where a tea party is just the best thing ever!
Some words and quotes that have touched me today: